Sunday, September 23, 2012

Ethnography of an Audience Member

I’ve been waiting for this day for weeks.  I bought my ticket well in advance, knowing that seating would be limited.  Only ten audience members would be allowed at each showing - we were, after all, going to see a performance in someone’s living room.

It is a warm evening, the dusk sun is low and has produced a golden aura on the blacktop of the street, the tops of buildings, the parked cars - the kind of warm but intense backlight that, as it retreats to the west, darkens any objects in the foreground and makes you squint to see them.  I made my way down the street, stepping over litter and crumpled newspaper.  Store fronts gave way to brick-faced row houses.  The sameness of the houses made me wonder what was happening inside.  Who lived in there?  If I were invited in, what would I find?  What was there dinner time ritual?  It is seven o’clock and my thoughts turn to food.  I am carrying a container of fried rice with sausage, shrimp, and vegetables.  It is still warm, and heavy.  I’ve brought enough to share, as this performance concludes with a potluck dinner. 

I see a small gathering of people outside one of the houses, and a Philadelphia Live Arts Fringe Festival sign on the sidewalk.  Polite greetings are exchanged, we wait for others to arrive.  Finally, we are welcomed by the Headlong Dance Theater staff.  We are given instructions on how to enter the house and find seats.  The tone is warm and welcoming, putting me at ease.  “In this house, we take off our shoes”.  Immediately I understand that the Headlong crew feel they have become members of this household, and by making this journey, entering this home, and sharing this experience, they suggest that we are now members of this household, too.  I enter, take off my shoes, and take a seat. 

I am struck by the intimacy of this space. I feel the wave of ambient sounds of low tones and nature waft over me. The air is thick and warm, the room is full of shadows contrasted by bright, backlit objects, as if the dusk sun followed us into this space.  There are strings of small lights everywhere. Lights and sound work to transform this living room into a sort of portal through which we can peer into this family’s life.  Home movies, and family pictures are projected onto left and right walls.  A tall, wide, wooden hutch cabinet stands straight ahead against the back wall.  Inside of it, more stringed lights emphasize the karate, baseball, and soccer trophies, as well as the oddly placed santa doll and other random (or not so random) knick-knacks.  Couldn’t this be my mother’s living room?  I have a heavy feeling, I want to be respectful of their space.  Though she’s trying hard to engage me, I cannot make small talk with the audience member next to me... not yet.  The familiar and comforting cover of the dark space between audience and stage is absent here.  I feel exposed, as though I am in this performance.  I need to sit and become part of the space, perhaps so I don't feel like such an obvious interloper?

Three young children peek around corners, like the munchkins in the Wizard of Oz.  They are giggly with anticipation, seemingly oblivious of any formal performer/audience protocol. The smallest boy is doing handstands on the top of the stairs, watching us upside-down. It reminds me of my childhood antics on the steps with my sister and brother... nostalgia is setting in. It is amazingly refreshing to me and it seems to ease my tension, letting me relax more into this new role I’ve been placed in - part audience, part performer, part member of the family.  

The movie projections come to an end, marking the transition to the next phase of this performance. The lights flicker on and off in a manner seemingly designed to transform the space once again and transport us through the portal they created.  The light show culminates in the illumination of the entire living room.  I made it through to the other side.  And now, I feel totally immersed in this scene... no longer like an interloper.  A buttery voice sings a soulful song from the 60’s. The father enters from the kitchen, the mother walks down stairs, slowly their eyes meet... they hold hands over the banister.  Tears immediately come to my eyes.  I am struck by their showing of love. My response is visceral as I recall that I will never again see such a display from my own parents.  I feel my muscles burn, chest tighten as I hold back tears.  I am wallowing in my own loss.  Is this about my story as much as it is about theirs?  Or am I being too self-centered?  I re-focus, and watch.

The couple meet in the living room, the kids run out and join them.  Their unique personalities are evident as they fit themselves into this scene. Their unique movement qualities and energies seem to be such an adamant exclamation of how they each belong -  what their role is in this family.  They are each holding a binder filled with pages of typed script.  They flip each page down so we can see them, revealing new words on each page that combine with each sibling's page to create sentences.  This choreography of page flipping introduces us to the family: 

Hello. (flip) 
We are Iranian-American.  (flip) 
eee-ranian, not eye-ranian.  (flip) 
We are the Aryadarei family.  (flip) 

Page-flipping continues, evoking laughter from the audience.  It is fun to learn about them in this way.   We learn their names, ages, hobbies, I am gobbling it up.  

The children exit with the mother.  The father sits on a bench and let's us know he will be telling us three stories about three fights. The first fight, he explains, taught him what it means to be a good father. I am enthralled.

We are taken on a journey of movement, music, and spoken word.  At the end, after the family takes a bow, we clap and cheer.  But it is not really the last story, not really the end.  It is time to share food, and more stories.  We set up tables and chairs and sit down to eat the food we brought.  One of the Headlong directors pulls out a list of prepared questions meant to ignite conversations, but he puts it away as he realizes we don’t need it.  Conversation flies in all different directions across and around the table.  The air is filled with compliments, questions, and myriad stories of family, Philadelphia, and the arts.   I learn that my street used to be cobbled with stones years back.  I learn that the daughter's favorite dance in the performance was her duet with her father.  I learn that the Aryadarei's applied to take part in this event, and were one of 4 out of 40 families chosen.  I smile as the Aryadarei kids run up and down the stairs with their new friends - a few kids from the audience.  We share food, pass dishes down, take care of each other.  I believe that we are members of this household, at least for this night.

Photo by John Collins.  From www.philly.com

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Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Dad's Footnotes

Deep down, I think I always knew that I would pursue a PhD degree, but until now it has been an abstract concept - some far-away fuzzy outline of an idea that if I squinted my eyes I could just barely make out its shape.

When my sister and I were little (and I mean really little), my dad would sit us down in front of his dry-erase board and practice his lectures on us.  I remember him spending an eternity in his office, click-clacking away on his giant typewriter or word processor, crafting his dissertation.  I remember the holed edges of the paper that he would tear off and fold accordion-style into acres-long strands.  I wonder what he was thinking of when he was folding, folding, folding.   Maybe nothing, maybe everything.

I remember he was so incredibly proud of his dissertation when he was done.  He knew where it could be found in the library, he showed me a few times.  Every time I had a book report due, he would produce his dissertation and point out his use of footnotes.  Yup, any time I had any kind of paper to write from elementary school to college, he offered to go get his dissertation.  He even chased me around the house with it once... "just look at the footnotes!"

I looked at that thing and saw words I didn't understand swirling around the page -  paragraph-long sentences, charts, statistics, and those fling-flanging footnotes! But what I did understand from very early on - consciously or not - was that if I wanted, I could pursue a PhD, too.  I didn't need to understand the "evaluation methods for aptitude tests of respiratory therapy students".  I needed to understand that I could apply hard work and perseverance towards achieving any goal.  He showed me that everyday.  

Now, I haven't even started my doctoral program yet (classes start on Monday), so I don't want to get ahead of myself.  I have a long, long way to go.  But I believe my journey down this road started as soon as my dad started scribbling on that dry-erase board.  And that makes it feel much less scary.  I can only imagine how much fuzzier the idea would be if my dad hadn't shown me where to look.

Thanks dad.







Sunday, August 12, 2012

A New Page...

I've just added a new page on this blog (see the tab on the top menu bar).  "Some Goals" is an essay adapted from the Statement of Goals that I wrote for my application to the PhD Program in Dance at Temple University.  I will leave it there on that tab as a reminder to myself.  I can look to it and feel motivation, or perhaps, uncertainty.  Either way, I hope it will continue to direct me.  But, just because I'm leaving it there does not mean that it will remain unchanged.  I'm sure that as I continue on this journey, it will evolve.  So, feel free to check on it from time to time, and send me any thoughts or feedback.  Thanks!




Friday, July 13, 2012

Reading List

Check out my Shelfari!   My sister Laura put me on to Shelfari.com last fall.  It has a lot of great features, but for me it is simply a nice way to keep track of books that I've read - and more importantly - books I'd like to read.  I'm so happy to have just discovered that I can share my reading list with you through this really cool Shelfari widget (see lower right corner of the page).  When you scroll your mouse over each book, a pop-up window will appear with detailed information. 

I've started to compile a list of books that I'm hoping to read (and possibly add to my permanent collection), which I believe will be of great use to me during my time at Temple and beyond.  I'm looking for anything related to dance, community, exchange, travel, research.... anything really!  

If you know of some great reads, I'm taking any and all suggestions.

Thanks!

Dancing Around the World

I'm posting the following article and video because it's fun, uplifting, and something I've always wanted to do.  The notion of dancing around the world has been on my mind for as long as I can remember, and my dance residency in Ghana 3 years ago definitely fueled the fire.  

Though I envision a much different approach for my own world-dance experience, I really like Matt Harding's take on it.  He has a few videos (check out his YouTube Channel), and there have been several write-ups about him.  I'm posting this one because it includes an interview which gives a little insight into his process:


Enjoy!



ps.  Much more to come on this topic.  Stay tuned!

Saturday, July 7, 2012

Dancing in the Streets

Sunday, June 24th, 2012 was the 42nd annual NYC Pride March (aka The Gay Pride Parade).   I've only seen glimpses of past marches while on my way elsewhere in NYC, and I could tell just from those few passing moments that the event is charged with crazy positive energy and tons of fun.

This year, I had the opportunity to perform in the parade.  I jumped at the chance to participate because: 

  • I thought it would be a great way to see the parade - from the inside out; 
  • I thought it would be a fun "New York" thing to do before my imminent move out of the state; and 
  • it's not everyday you get to celebrate life and promote civil rights all while boogying down 40+ city blocks in front of screaming crowds.  


So, I did it - and it was awesome.

Photo: Time Warner Cable

The parade lived up to all of my expectations and then some.  To experience the parade from the inside as a performer/marcher was so special.  The crowd was so appreciative and responsive, and for some reason, the view from the middle of the street made the buildings seem to come alive.  It may sound silly, but it was beautiful!  I was eager to take time to proactively think about and promote equal rights for all human beings. And to be amongst people who were celebrating their first year of legal marriage, or people who were fighting for the right to just be able to stand by their partner's side in the hospital, made the whole experience so real and so incredibly profound.  I was grateful for this wake-up call.

But what really surprised me was the realization that it was such a true and pure form of community interaction through dance.  I'm not sure why I wasn't expecting that, I guess I didn't really think about it.  I was hired by Time Warner Cable as a parade dancer and assistant choreographer for their float in the parade (they were a parade sponsor this year).  Time Warner prides itself on the diversity of its workforce and the support they show all of their employees.  This is awesome and I was glad to represent them, but let's face it, we were essentially a corporate dancing advertisement (we were dressed like Cable Technicians for pete's sake).  

Photo: Time Warner Cable

So, I wasn't expecting this to be one of those moments when I connect to the community through art.  But I was wrong, and I should have known better.

When the ensemble of "cable dancers" boogied and improvised passed the parade goers, they smiled and waved, but when our choreographed routine kicked into gear... they went crazy!  The decibel level of cheers and hollers skyrocketed, arms flailed and heads bobbed.  And they gave off this wave of appreciation and joy that we were dancing - for them.  There was this unspoken understanding that we were all here in this place together for a common reason, and this dance that we were doing was created for them. So, by the time we neared the end of the parade route, covered in sweat, nauseas from the fumes of the truck in front of us, ears ringing from the music blasting around us, weak and tired and dehydrated... we kicked it up 200%.  Why?  Because at the end of the route, we were met with the largest, most enthusiastic crowd ever.  They gave us energy, and we gave it back.  We did our improv, we danced our choreographed routine, we made up group dances on the spot, and did it again and again because of this amazing crowd of people.  We were deep in an instantaneous exchange with them - an exchange of ideas, energy, enjoyment, and yes... pride!  

When people have asked me what constitutes "community interaction through dance", my mind would scan through a million possible scenarios.  Now there I have a million and one.




This video captures a moment when we spontaneously made up dances to 
entertain the crowd during a pause in the parade's progress down the route.  

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Bang the Drum

Community interaction through dance is such an incredibly broad "topic".  I envision the posts that will follow in the coming months will be a hodgepodge of event overviews, video, reviews (maybe), general musings, etc.  And they'll cover anything from education to performance, creative development to social change, and much more... there's just no limit when it comes to "community"... or dance... or interaction, for that matter.  

So, my first post is not specifically about dance.  It is about community, and something that is affecting all of the arts today.  I came across a Facebook post from an old high school classmate, now a successful musician.  It's best if you just read Warren Wolf's post yourself:

"Just read an email from a friend of mine about the sad state of jazz in Baltimore. For those who are interested in knowing what I'm talking about, Baltimore Office of Promotions has funded an festival for years called Artscape. In a nutshell, jazz music has been reduced to 1 artist this year, the Billie Holiday & Chick Webb competitions are no longer happening, no more Baltimore Jazz Alliance stage etc..... The Baltimore Office of Promotions has decided that Jazz isn't a big thing anymore, even though jazz at Artscape has ALWAYS done well. Very sad....and it's not just jazz music, but it's other arts such as dance, as well. My wife was just performing in this festival just two years ago and now dance isn't happening anymore. SMH, arts in Baltimore.....or is it everywhere?"

Well, as you can imagine, the comments came pouring in.  The discussion covered everything from the lack of funding for the arts, to the responsibility of the audience, the watering down or lack of accessibility of the art form of Jazz, to the education of the community.  These are all common themes heard time and time again in dance.  Almost every dance article I've read lately has been about the sorry state that we're in.  It is ridiculously depressing, and I don't really want to talk about it.  What interests me more is the response, the possibilities, the solutions. And Warren's post actually evoked something uplifting, which is what inspired me to blog about it.  It was a recurring comment found throughout the conversation thread.  It was a call for action.  If something is missing, go out and do it yourself.  So, here is Warren's response:

"replying to my own post about arts in Baltimore, so here's a simple solution that I plan on doing, for starters.......on Friday July 20, which is the first day of Artscape (let's hope it doesn't rain) probably around 5:00 or 6:00pm, I will be performing with a few of my friends (drums only, no vibes) somewhere near Penn Station. I'll make sure that my voice is heard and we will be, very much, visible. Gotta make a change!!!!!!"


I wish I could be there to hear those drums (I'll bet people will be dancing... I would!) I asked Warren for permission to write about all this, and for permission to use any video from his event.  So, stay tuned for more.  I'm really looking forward to seeing how all this turns out, and I'll definitely keep you posted.